"She fell in love every other year and swore that every love would be her last. For months on end after every breakup, she would wallow in her misery and think of everything she’d ever given up for love. Of who she could have been now or of what she could have done differently.
The very last time was the worst, because it might have been the only time she’d ever really, truly fallen in love. When he broke her heart, she knew he’d broken more than just that. He’d broken her."
http://thoughtcatalog.com/katrina-tamondong/2014/04/to-all-the-people-who-thought-they-couldnt-be-happy/
Thursday, April 10, 2014
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
7 kids. 17 grandkids. 23 great grandkids. my great grandmother is amazing. not only is she the most warm, sweetest women i have ever met, she is the oldest person i know outliving both my grandfathers. obviously, being one of her 23 grandkids I did get to spend too much time one on one time with her. the one thing i will always remember her telling me, is that she will be at my wedding. yes, i know she wants me to do well in school and lead a successful life, but the one thing that she knows will make me happy is being married to the one person who loves you as much as you love them and starting your own family. she knows that money isn't everything, have a close knit family is. She values a life that is filled with happiness and leaving your legacy with your family.
just like my both my grandfathers, they were both able to move on when they were able to see every last member of their family for the last time. they knew they were dying with the people that he loves and loves him around him. the most important thing in life is to find your love and have kids. basically. you will be happy in your life if you are able to find that.
just like my both my grandfathers, they were both able to move on when they were able to see every last member of their family for the last time. they knew they were dying with the people that he loves and loves him around him. the most important thing in life is to find your love and have kids. basically. you will be happy in your life if you are able to find that.
Thursday, July 5, 2012
after watching strangers again i had the realization that we will never ever be friends again. this is the end. were always going to be strangers.
"the end of the line. the worst stage ever. breaking up. i dont know when it will happen or how but i hope we can leave it on good mutual turns if that is possible. and that is when the two of us will start a new path, one that will lead us back to where we started. strangers..... eventually one or both of us will move on and find someone new. and even when we both get over the past and try to remain friends, things will never be the same. our lives will continue on in different directions. toward the inevitable end. becoming strangers again. and everything we share will become fragmented memories, from so long ago. well question if it even happend. and all that will be left is a box of random stuff from a faded period of time when that stranger was the most importnat person in my life."
"the end of the line. the worst stage ever. breaking up. i dont know when it will happen or how but i hope we can leave it on good mutual turns if that is possible. and that is when the two of us will start a new path, one that will lead us back to where we started. strangers..... eventually one or both of us will move on and find someone new. and even when we both get over the past and try to remain friends, things will never be the same. our lives will continue on in different directions. toward the inevitable end. becoming strangers again. and everything we share will become fragmented memories, from so long ago. well question if it even happend. and all that will be left is a box of random stuff from a faded period of time when that stranger was the most importnat person in my life."
Friday, June 29, 2012
i just realize i like to blog/journal/post whenever i am in a seriously dark place. i guess this is one of those times that i am in a horrible time in my life. you would think that graduation is one the most exciting times in your life. let me tell you, it is not.
within a week of graduation, i am unemployed, heartbroken, miserable, and just a complete mess.
lets start with unemployment, this job market is a tough one. no one wants anyone without experience, well guess what i don't have that much experience as a college graduate. so i can not go anywhere up. i feel exactly the same as the way i felt when i graduated high school with the exception of the fact that i was excited for the future. i can get the exact same jobs as i did before. so now, four years later, 30,000 dollars in debt, and uncertain of my life i am worse off than when i graduated from high school. why did i go to college? oh yeah to get heartbroken.
baby, you were supposed to be the one that stayed with me. we were happy, we are fine the way we are. you just ran into a few bumps in the road and you just couldn't handle it. im sorry you choose to let me go, i was the one that wanted to support you through all of the hardships that you are about to encounter. your going to need someone and i hope you do find that person that will be there. i love you and i hate you at the same time but you know what thats what a break up is.
so with those last two paragraph it should be obvious why i am not sleeping, but swimming in the early mornings. i have to admit this is one of the darkest places i have ever been in my life. NO THANKS TO YOU LIFE! life is a cruel cruel world!!!!!!!
within a week of graduation, i am unemployed, heartbroken, miserable, and just a complete mess.
lets start with unemployment, this job market is a tough one. no one wants anyone without experience, well guess what i don't have that much experience as a college graduate. so i can not go anywhere up. i feel exactly the same as the way i felt when i graduated high school with the exception of the fact that i was excited for the future. i can get the exact same jobs as i did before. so now, four years later, 30,000 dollars in debt, and uncertain of my life i am worse off than when i graduated from high school. why did i go to college? oh yeah to get heartbroken.
baby, you were supposed to be the one that stayed with me. we were happy, we are fine the way we are. you just ran into a few bumps in the road and you just couldn't handle it. im sorry you choose to let me go, i was the one that wanted to support you through all of the hardships that you are about to encounter. your going to need someone and i hope you do find that person that will be there. i love you and i hate you at the same time but you know what thats what a break up is.
so with those last two paragraph it should be obvious why i am not sleeping, but swimming in the early mornings. i have to admit this is one of the darkest places i have ever been in my life. NO THANKS TO YOU LIFE! life is a cruel cruel world!!!!!!!
Monday, August 8, 2011
Friday, July 1, 2011
mann this got me wondering why i even came home. why did i make such an effort to come home when you dont even care. why am i even home. i could be back at school, instead of wasting 7 hours of my life driving home to just chill in my room. something i could have done in irvine. i am no longer excited about this. i dont even want to go anymore. if anything i just wanna stay home and sleep till monday when i go back to irvine. this shows how much people you thought were your friends really dont give a shit about you. so fuck this shit.
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