Sunday, December 26, 2010
Saturday, December 18, 2010
you confuse me.
I am so confused. i hate playing these gamee with you. just be nice to me. tell me how you feel and that it. im a big girl i can handle my shit. so just tell me whats going on and then thats it... dont play this game. im sick and tired of games. because its not gonna make me want you. im done with game. i played with the games with the boys from my past and there is a reason they are my past. so dont play these games or you are just gonna be my past again.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
home is where the heart is
i hate being interested in someone. cuz you are always just on my mind and just so much is going on. i wish i didn't meet you. im not ready for anything other then being single! :( so home is supposed to help be forget about irvine. and irvine is supposed to help me forget about home. but man why do you have to be from both placesss. OH WELL! gonna have funnnn in bgamee! :)
Thursday, November 25, 2010
thanksgiving
man oh man. its thanksgiving already... time passed by so fast but yet so slow. There are just so many things that i am thankful for.
my family: I love my parents and brother with all my heart. my parents basically give me all that i need to become my own person. they are hard on me to teach me to grow up. but when needed they are right there to support me. without them i wouldn't be who i am today. no lie. they are my support when it gets bad they are who i go to when i really need someone.
my friends: these are the ppl i go to everyday. my old friends at mills/csm and then theres my new friends in irvine. and some of them are friend that go to both! they are the friends that pick me up when i am down and when i am having a bad day. but they are the ppl that i laugh the most with. they are the ones that make fun of me the most about the stupid things i do. the boys i have crushes on and have crush on me. i loveee you guys! i am most definitly thankful for them! :) so if you are part of my mills, bis, unity, or irvine group of friends thanks :)
cameron house: i love this organization. it brings out the best people. and he has some of the most caring and kind people there. with all my drama i had there in my past i still love going there cuz i love what it does.
be thankful for what you have!! :)
my family: I love my parents and brother with all my heart. my parents basically give me all that i need to become my own person. they are hard on me to teach me to grow up. but when needed they are right there to support me. without them i wouldn't be who i am today. no lie. they are my support when it gets bad they are who i go to when i really need someone.
my friends: these are the ppl i go to everyday. my old friends at mills/csm and then theres my new friends in irvine. and some of them are friend that go to both! they are the friends that pick me up when i am down and when i am having a bad day. but they are the ppl that i laugh the most with. they are the ones that make fun of me the most about the stupid things i do. the boys i have crushes on and have crush on me. i loveee you guys! i am most definitly thankful for them! :) so if you are part of my mills, bis, unity, or irvine group of friends thanks :)
cameron house: i love this organization. it brings out the best people. and he has some of the most caring and kind people there. with all my drama i had there in my past i still love going there cuz i love what it does.
be thankful for what you have!! :)
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
personality test
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
meaning of life
my professor was talking about the meaning of life today. honestly i wasn't listening too much but she was asking us to define success and what we though success was. and she had a list of the top answers she go for students, which included: falling in love, getting into grad school, getting a job, getting a career. what is success? i feel like its just something that makes me happy and i guess self satisfaction with the outcome of whatever i did? i dont know. what is the purpose of our life? i dont think ill feel a sense a satisfaction of falling in love. I feel like its so over rated. maybe cuz i haven't been in love yet, so for now its not viewed as a success. getting into grad school? nahhh i think that just what my parents want. what i need to do to support myself. so getting a job or a career, isn't success either? i guess i dont know what success is but i hope i know what it feels like, and if i ever do feel success, it will be a feeling i have never felt before. so i hope one day ill know what i want from life.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
That's oaky with me Jreyez
-(verse 1)
yeah, all the arguing and fighting
thinking that it was over, sparking it and it might be
this hard life see it through my eye vision too
missioned all the way out of the city just to visit you
we're growing up a lot faster than our friends
they pretend and they wanna see us fall in the end
and they don't care and they're living lies in their time
cus it makes them feel better about their lives going no where
you never trusted me and I never trusted you
no excuse your mistake was fully up to you
but I forgave you, that's what we need to do
we can speak it through, honestly
I miss her with X and O's, I shoulda just let her know
I shouldn't have let her go, she wouldn't be better off
cus the people all around her is nothing but bad influence
I know that when I found her I loved her more than my music
-(chorus)now you're a song I love to sing.Never thought I'd feel so free.Now I know what's been to me and that's okay with me
-(verse 2)
we forgot how it started, were lost in the moment
all this commotion of bottled up emotion
the love is blurred and it's out of its focus
its been a few hours incase you didnt noticed
emotion in our voice is based on tone
you dont get it so you go hang up the phone
it's an excuse that your wrong but your trying to be right
and I'm doing the same since the beginning of the fight
and it's like we all the same, people make mistakes
you keep me sane from the world of fakes
the only person I can talk to and always there to listen
you the best, I consider you my bestfriend
wanna relax knowing I got you
and you got me too so lets walk it through
sometimes I can't even talk to you
but just understand anythings possible
-(Chorus)now you're a song I love to sing.Never thought I'd feel so free.Now I know what's been to me and that's okay with me
(verse 3)
sometimes I feel like were the worst of friends
time is spent but just to her extent
and I don't resent cus of her expense
I'm trying to explain but theres her defence
I respect you, the things that I said I never meant to
straight, I ain't fake and I aint gotta pretend boo
i see you in the mirror, you an exact resemblence
you just like me, I'm sorry I acted selfish
we both equal the same kind of people
me and you the picture frame gotta sequel
I wouldn't leave you, I'm still by ya side
and at the end of the day I know you still down to ride
Bonnie and Clyde whatever you call it
I'm right behind, whenever your fallin
a big fight is just a small fraction
of us we just gotta be real and adapt it
-(Chorus)Now you're a song I love to sing Never thought I'd feel so free now i know what's been to me and that's okay with me.Hmmmm
(I like to thank you for listening and hear my voice and just hear what I gotta say u kno what im sayin. And if you're out there listening i just want you to know that I'll always hold you down I got You.)
Love of my Life,my soul mate(yea) ur my bestfriend(ur my bestfriend)
part of me like breathing now half of me is left
yeah, all the arguing and fighting
thinking that it was over, sparking it and it might be
this hard life see it through my eye vision too
missioned all the way out of the city just to visit you
we're growing up a lot faster than our friends
they pretend and they wanna see us fall in the end
and they don't care and they're living lies in their time
cus it makes them feel better about their lives going no where
you never trusted me and I never trusted you
no excuse your mistake was fully up to you
but I forgave you, that's what we need to do
we can speak it through, honestly
I miss her with X and O's, I shoulda just let her know
I shouldn't have let her go, she wouldn't be better off
cus the people all around her is nothing but bad influence
I know that when I found her I loved her more than my music
-(chorus)now you're a song I love to sing.Never thought I'd feel so free.Now I know what's been to me and that's okay with me
-(verse 2)
we forgot how it started, were lost in the moment
all this commotion of bottled up emotion
the love is blurred and it's out of its focus
its been a few hours incase you didnt noticed
emotion in our voice is based on tone
you dont get it so you go hang up the phone
it's an excuse that your wrong but your trying to be right
and I'm doing the same since the beginning of the fight
and it's like we all the same, people make mistakes
you keep me sane from the world of fakes
the only person I can talk to and always there to listen
you the best, I consider you my bestfriend
wanna relax knowing I got you
and you got me too so lets walk it through
sometimes I can't even talk to you
but just understand anythings possible
-(Chorus)now you're a song I love to sing.Never thought I'd feel so free.Now I know what's been to me and that's okay with me
(verse 3)
sometimes I feel like were the worst of friends
time is spent but just to her extent
and I don't resent cus of her expense
I'm trying to explain but theres her defence
I respect you, the things that I said I never meant to
straight, I ain't fake and I aint gotta pretend boo
i see you in the mirror, you an exact resemblence
you just like me, I'm sorry I acted selfish
we both equal the same kind of people
me and you the picture frame gotta sequel
I wouldn't leave you, I'm still by ya side
and at the end of the day I know you still down to ride
Bonnie and Clyde whatever you call it
I'm right behind, whenever your fallin
a big fight is just a small fraction
of us we just gotta be real and adapt it
-(Chorus)Now you're a song I love to sing Never thought I'd feel so free now i know what's been to me and that's okay with me.Hmmmm
(I like to thank you for listening and hear my voice and just hear what I gotta say u kno what im sayin. And if you're out there listening i just want you to know that I'll always hold you down I got You.)
Love of my Life,my soul mate(yea) ur my bestfriend(ur my bestfriend)
part of me like breathing now half of me is left
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