Thursday, January 6, 2011
death...
i hate that you are going through this. i want to be ehre for you. but i dont know how too :( death is really hard. i had a hard time with it and i know you are too. just know that im always a phone call a text away from you and seriously ill be by yourside if you need me to be. im sorry you are going through this and im sorry i never know what the right words to say are. but time heals all wounds. and know that there are so many people other there that you can fall back on. and i am definitly one of them. many people are in hte same position as you and i know they are all grieving as well. i know you can do this. you are strong. but really cry if you have to. you dont have to tell anyone. let yourself feel the emotions. know that i am and always will be here for you.
Monday, January 3, 2011
relationship
man im scared to be in a relationship. i feel like im too wishy washy to be in one. i know i like him. but then im scared because he might actually stick around. unlike my last few who werent the type to stay or ready to stay. but here i am about to move forward with someone that might actually stick around. yeah i have doubts but it just feels so comfortable to be around him. he doesn't make me feel dumb or look down on me. he doesn't try and make me feel awkward. he just makes me happy. i doubt too much but i guess sometimes i just gotta take a risk.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Saturday, December 18, 2010
you confuse me.
I am so confused. i hate playing these gamee with you. just be nice to me. tell me how you feel and that it. im a big girl i can handle my shit. so just tell me whats going on and then thats it... dont play this game. im sick and tired of games. because its not gonna make me want you. im done with game. i played with the games with the boys from my past and there is a reason they are my past. so dont play these games or you are just gonna be my past again.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
home is where the heart is
i hate being interested in someone. cuz you are always just on my mind and just so much is going on. i wish i didn't meet you. im not ready for anything other then being single! :( so home is supposed to help be forget about irvine. and irvine is supposed to help me forget about home. but man why do you have to be from both placesss. OH WELL! gonna have funnnn in bgamee! :)
Thursday, November 25, 2010
thanksgiving
man oh man. its thanksgiving already... time passed by so fast but yet so slow. There are just so many things that i am thankful for.
my family: I love my parents and brother with all my heart. my parents basically give me all that i need to become my own person. they are hard on me to teach me to grow up. but when needed they are right there to support me. without them i wouldn't be who i am today. no lie. they are my support when it gets bad they are who i go to when i really need someone.
my friends: these are the ppl i go to everyday. my old friends at mills/csm and then theres my new friends in irvine. and some of them are friend that go to both! they are the friends that pick me up when i am down and when i am having a bad day. but they are the ppl that i laugh the most with. they are the ones that make fun of me the most about the stupid things i do. the boys i have crushes on and have crush on me. i loveee you guys! i am most definitly thankful for them! :) so if you are part of my mills, bis, unity, or irvine group of friends thanks :)
cameron house: i love this organization. it brings out the best people. and he has some of the most caring and kind people there. with all my drama i had there in my past i still love going there cuz i love what it does.
be thankful for what you have!! :)
my family: I love my parents and brother with all my heart. my parents basically give me all that i need to become my own person. they are hard on me to teach me to grow up. but when needed they are right there to support me. without them i wouldn't be who i am today. no lie. they are my support when it gets bad they are who i go to when i really need someone.
my friends: these are the ppl i go to everyday. my old friends at mills/csm and then theres my new friends in irvine. and some of them are friend that go to both! they are the friends that pick me up when i am down and when i am having a bad day. but they are the ppl that i laugh the most with. they are the ones that make fun of me the most about the stupid things i do. the boys i have crushes on and have crush on me. i loveee you guys! i am most definitly thankful for them! :) so if you are part of my mills, bis, unity, or irvine group of friends thanks :)
cameron house: i love this organization. it brings out the best people. and he has some of the most caring and kind people there. with all my drama i had there in my past i still love going there cuz i love what it does.
be thankful for what you have!! :)
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
personality test
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
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