my life is messy

im a mess and i am trying to figure out a lot of things. so don't make any decisions based on me. don't let me hold you back. don't let me play you. in the end i might hurt you. im going to school in irvine. currently i am in hong kong. i have a bad history. i was recently hurt. i've been unstable. so i guess what i am trying to say is. don't wait for me anymore. i would probably be a waste of your time. and in the end i don't want you to hate me even though you may already after what i have been doing. i don't want to drag you into my mess. you deserve better than me.