so reliant on the internet and technology

So, yesterday in class my professor was lecturing on how we are so reliant on the internet and technology. We have twitter where you can just keep updating what you are up to and what you are doing. We have facebook where we look at other people's profiles and pictures and comments to each other. We are so reliant on these internet activities. It takes us away from other human to human contact and distracts us from other things we could be doing.

I am the first to admit that I am always on my fb/twitter, i even just got a tumblr. They are the biggest thing that distracts me when i should be studying. I take little breaks on facebook and update my twitter. but why? why are we always so addicted? I should change but im pretty addicated. that is why i really would not want internet on my phone. I dont want to always be on my fb or twitter. i already text soo often the internet will just take up more time. the invention of the internet may have been seen as a good thing but at the same time i can see it as a horrible thing that takes away from humanity.

wow. just like that.

wow.i don't know ive put up with a lot of shit with you for the past like three years? i dont know. ive known you for what like nine years now? weve been through our ups and downs. but im pretty sure this down is going to break it all. cuz i dont think i can take it anymore. i hide it all from you and you don't even realize what you do. im just sick of it. i guess ill just stop trying to talk to you. no one knows this at all, but out of everyone you should be the one to know this. you don't even tell me. hellla shaddyy. whatever dude. im done with this. just watch us throw away almost 10 years. alll the shit youve been through ive been right there with you but this time im done. im over it.

conflicted

and my mind is still on youu. you just don't understand how hard this is for me. you dont even care. you want me to get over you. just like you are over me. but i guess i can't. i dont know why. i want to. you don't know how badly i want to. youve hurt me. i cant trust you. we dont talk and when we do you don't make an effort. i deserve better but you are still whats on my mind and i can't move on as hard as i try. never have i felt like this before.

finally in irvine

So i moved down here last saturday and today was offically the first day of classes but i dont have tuesday and thursday classes so its still pretty chill for me. i walk a lot here. i miss having ppl drive me around. but its okay. ive been doing a lot of welcome activities and others as such. so its been prettty fun i guess. still trying to get used to the campus and all that stuff. but yeahh. i miss my friends in the bay area. but i like this whole new start thing. soo calm. next stop.. BEACH! :)

solo

i think i could have loved you. but we've been through too much now and its over. we can't go back to what we were before. we can't because you arn't ready. becaue your still in love with her. we dont have good conversations anymore. we just have normal ones. i dont wanna argue with you anymore and thats a sign that im getting over you. im moving on. im not going to wait for you forever. i dont have the patience. your just not the guy for me. im sorry.

cleaning my room

So, for the past month or so I was supposed to clean and pack up my room as much as possible. And earlier I was going through some things and i had to put it all back. I realized that I cleaned most of my room except for certain areas in my room because there are items in those areas that i do not want to see. It will bring back soo many memories... and those are memories I don't want to remember. It will bring back the pain, the anger, the disappointment, the sadness... I think i need to have a huge bonfire for all of those stuff. I need to get rid of them but I dont know how i am going to when I cant even go to the area of my room to let it go.

UCII!!

So, im leaving for school in about three weeks. Less than three weeks. I'm actually kinda scared. but at the same time im kinda excited. Its a new place and ill meet new ppl and ill be able to further my education and study things i like to study. I get to live on my own without my parents telling me waht to do all the time and actually be in socal. i have no idea what my future lies for me. i dont know what to do. should i listen to what my heart wants or what my mind is telling me. am i actually going to move to socal for good now? i honestly don't know what i am going to do. I have built a really goood group of connections and friendships in the bay area. Although i love socal's enviornment more, my friends mean a lot more to me up here. but my family is in Socal so i have no idea what i am going to do...