sometimes you just have to let things out.

lately, i have been really stressed out. I have been going through a lot of things in basically all aspects of my life. it seems as if nothing is going right. nothing good is coming out. i knew that something was wrong with me at the exact moment when i found out i got into college and i wasn't happy. I wasn't happy for the one thing i had been working towards for two years. my biggest goal for two years. i have had a very difficult two years. but i did it for the people that i love. i don't show it to them. but i do love my parents. my actions or words don't always show it, but they are the ones that kept me from doing some things that i would have otherwise done.

have you ever been in a huge crowd or surrounded by a lot of people and still feel like the loneliest person. yea thats how i've been feeling. I've been in the company of so many people lately but i still feel like the only person there. so lost and confused.

"I just tell myself to be happy. But I don't feel happy. And when I try to change it, when I try to remember what being happy felt like, I can't. I don't feel joy. I don't feel inspired. I just feel numb." Haley James Scott, One Tree Hill.