meaning of life

my professor was talking about the meaning of life today. honestly i wasn't listening too much but she was asking us to define success and what we though success was. and she had a list of the top answers she go for students, which included: falling in love, getting into grad school, getting a job, getting a career. what is success? i feel like its just something that makes me happy and i guess self satisfaction with the outcome of whatever i did? i dont know. what is the purpose of our life? i dont think ill feel a sense a satisfaction of falling in love. I feel like its so over rated. maybe cuz i haven't been in love yet, so for now its not viewed as a success. getting into grad school? nahhh i think that just what my parents want. what i need to do to support myself. so getting a job or a career, isn't success either? i guess i dont know what success is but i hope i know what it feels like, and if i ever do feel success, it will be a feeling i have never felt before. so i hope one day ill know what i want from life.

That's oaky with me Jreyez

-(verse 1)
yeah, all the arguing and fighting
thinking that it was over, sparking it and it might be
this hard life see it through my eye vision too
missioned all the way out of the city just to visit you
we're growing up a lot faster than our friends
they pretend and they wanna see us fall in the end
and they don't care and they're living lies in their time
cus it makes them feel better about their lives going no where
you never trusted me and I never trusted you
no excuse your mistake was fully up to you
but I forgave you, that's what we need to do
we can speak it through, honestly
I miss her with X and O's, I shoulda just let her know
I shouldn't have let her go, she wouldn't be better off
cus the people all around her is nothing but bad influence
I know that when I found her I loved her more than my music
-(chorus)now you're a song I love to sing.Never thought I'd feel so free.Now I know what's been to me and that's okay with me
-(verse 2)
we forgot how it started, were lost in the moment
all this commotion of bottled up emotion
the love is blurred and it's out of its focus
its been a few hours incase you didnt noticed
emotion in our voice is based on tone
you dont get it so you go hang up the phone
it's an excuse that your wrong but your trying to be right
and I'm doing the same since the beginning of the fight
and it's like we all the same, people make mistakes
you keep me sane from the world of fakes
the only person I can talk to and always there to listen
you the best, I consider you my bestfriend
wanna relax knowing I got you
and you got me too so lets walk it through
sometimes I can't even talk to you
but just understand anythings possible
-(Chorus)now you're a song I love to sing.Never thought I'd feel so free.Now I know what's been to me and that's okay with me
(verse 3)
sometimes I feel like were the worst of friends
time is spent but just to her extent
and I don't resent cus of her expense
I'm trying to explain but theres her defence
I respect you, the things that I said I never meant to
straight, I ain't fake and I aint gotta pretend boo
i see you in the mirror, you an exact resemblence
you just like me, I'm sorry I acted selfish
we both equal the same kind of people
me and you the picture frame gotta sequel
I wouldn't leave you, I'm still by ya side
and at the end of the day I know you still down to ride
Bonnie and Clyde whatever you call it
I'm right behind, whenever your fallin
a big fight is just a small fraction
of us we just gotta be real and adapt it
-(Chorus)Now you're a song I love to sing Never thought I'd feel so free now i know what's been to me and that's okay with me.Hmmmm
(I like to thank you for listening and hear my voice and just hear what I gotta say u kno what im sayin. And if you're out there listening i just want you to know that I'll always hold you down I got You.)
Love of my Life,my soul mate(yea) ur my bestfriend(ur my bestfriend)
part of me like breathing now half of me is left

CRUSHCRUSHCRUSH

this is soooo weird. i feel myself moving on. but im not sure. i hope i am. i want to. and this new boy. i dont know. like ive known him for so long. but at the same time i haven't really gotten to know him yet. sighh. i wish i could jsut see how it all goes. :( for now ill just go and enjoy school and all the new friendships.

so reliant on the internet and technology

So, yesterday in class my professor was lecturing on how we are so reliant on the internet and technology. We have twitter where you can just keep updating what you are up to and what you are doing. We have facebook where we look at other people's profiles and pictures and comments to each other. We are so reliant on these internet activities. It takes us away from other human to human contact and distracts us from other things we could be doing.

I am the first to admit that I am always on my fb/twitter, i even just got a tumblr. They are the biggest thing that distracts me when i should be studying. I take little breaks on facebook and update my twitter. but why? why are we always so addicted? I should change but im pretty addicated. that is why i really would not want internet on my phone. I dont want to always be on my fb or twitter. i already text soo often the internet will just take up more time. the invention of the internet may have been seen as a good thing but at the same time i can see it as a horrible thing that takes away from humanity.

wow. just like that.

wow.i don't know ive put up with a lot of shit with you for the past like three years? i dont know. ive known you for what like nine years now? weve been through our ups and downs. but im pretty sure this down is going to break it all. cuz i dont think i can take it anymore. i hide it all from you and you don't even realize what you do. im just sick of it. i guess ill just stop trying to talk to you. no one knows this at all, but out of everyone you should be the one to know this. you don't even tell me. hellla shaddyy. whatever dude. im done with this. just watch us throw away almost 10 years. alll the shit youve been through ive been right there with you but this time im done. im over it.